Update on me

I'm going to try to update on my health about once a month.  I'm doing this as a way to hold myself accountable.  So since I last wrote there have been several changes.  The first has been my medication. For those of you who didn't see the earlier post I have hypothyroidism and I have neglected to take my medicine for the last few years.  I will stay on the higher dose until I go to the specialist at the end of the month.  I suspect at that point I will have to have some more blood work and  more decisions will have to be made. 

I have also joined Weight Watchers with a friend of mine.  As of yesterday I have lost 11.8 pounds.  I'm averaging about 3 pounds a week.  I'm very excited about the weight loss.  I'm not exercising much at all...I'm just not ready to try to fit that into my schedule.  I am writing down everything I eat and going to the meetings and sticking religiously to the plan. 

How do I feel?  I feel like I am waking up from a dream.....or coming out of a fog.  Life seems clearer if that makes any sense.  I am a bit overwhelmed at the fullness of my days....but I think that is better then being numb.  I feel like my plate is very full.  I know people want more from me....and I know they want it because they love me....but I don't have more to give.  I don't call people.....I don't hang out much.....I'm terrible at initiating time with friends.  It's not because I don't care.....it's just because I'm exhausted.  I wish I could do better but in all honesty I'm not sure that I can do better right now.  I feel very stretched.  I feel very spent.  I feel very sleepy.   But at least I'm feeling.....that's a start!

So....keep praying for me.  I'm glad that I am focusing on this and trying to get it under control.  I'm glad I'm on medication and have such wonderful doctors.  I'm glad I have friends who want to spend time with me even if I'm a pretty rotten friend in return :)  Please pray for the mission trip.  Andrew and I are leaving on Saturday and will be off the grid for a week.  I'm very excited and nervous.  Pray for Randy...he's got the crew....and his mom and my mom.....they are helping while he's at work.  Pray for this to be a wonderful experience for all of us.  Pray I will keep focused on my goal of being healthier.

That's about all!
Kim