Last night the kids had a little party at the house. They each had a friend or two over and we had pizza, a chocolate fountain, toasted the New Year with Sparkling Cider and sprayed confetti in the Living Room. Those were the highlights.
There were so pretty low spots in the night too. Tears were shed. But being surrounded with friends made it bearable.
Such is life. Highs. Lows. Fun. Sorrow. Relationships
Each new year I can't help but think of how to make the coming year better. What to do....I mean I need to eat right, exercise, clean my house better, manage my money better, take more time for myself, study God's Word more, serve others more, care for extended family more, and read more and blog more and make more memories and disciple my kids better......and go more places and do more things......It's a bit overwhelming to be such a hot mess. Oh and as I glance around my cluttered bedroom I'm remind I definitely need a better laundry plan and should certainly pack rather then blog. I'm moving in 3 weeks people!
As I was talking to an acquaintance a couple weeks ago about how delicious the coffee creamer I was indulging in made the coffee I was drinking I said jokingly that I may make it my New Years resolution to drink coffee with creamer every afternoon. I joked that may be one I can keep. Except the more I think about it the more sure I am sure that I wouldn't keep that resolution either. I am absolutely sure I can't even manage to do something I love everyday. That is just how I am. I'm not lazy, well I sorta am, but I'm also sorta a boss at accomplishing tons each day.....its just not everything. It's just not everyday. I'm just a total work in progress.
So this years resolutions are a little more general. I want to exercise more then I did last year and lucky for me I set the bar low with very little exercise last year. I probably averaged once a month....so if I did once a week I'd be killing it, but even once every other week would be an improvement!
Last year I resolved to read more books, and I did read more, but not counting the Bible....
I read:
What was Mine
Unoffendable
12 Ways Your Smartphone is Changing You
Women of the Word
and am almost finished reading:
Therefore I have Hope: 12 truths that comfort, sustain, and redeem in tragedy
That is only almost 5 in a year.....so I can probably do better this year.
But really this year I don't even want to focus so much on what I'm doing, but rather who I'm becoming. I want to be a more mature woman of God. I want to KNOW God's word better. I want to be kinder and more patient with my family. For this to happen I'm going to have to be more sanctified and that will only happen by the washing of myself in His Word. So last year I just wanted to finish reading the whole Bible, but this year I want to really study books of the Bible. I want to memorize passages from the Bible. That is all that will change me. I'm too halfway. I'm too chill. I'm too sinful. I can't change on my own, but I can keep growing in the Lord and he can keep chipping away the rough edges. So the process continues.....
Happiest of New Years to all of you. I wish you all clean houses, great health, fabulous bodies, fat bank accounts, and dream vacations. But in reality I know this year may be filled with love, happiness, riches, joy, tragedy, heartache, poverty, or sorrow I have no idea, probably a sprinkling of it all. I do know that God is faithful. I do know that he loves me and has a beautiful plan for each of our lives. Let us walk in it.
