Smallness

 One thought I keep having as I contemplate  idea of BECOMING is the idea of smallness.  I remember as a little girl lip singing to Tiffany and Debbie Gibson with my hairbrush into my bedroom mirror.  I was on point.  I was all in and gave it 100%.  I had every word down.  I could work a crowd!  I imagined the crowds, the cheers, the glitz, the glamour, and the fame.  Well the good Lord in his wisdom did not bless me with a singing voice, so fame eluded me.  The thing is.....why would I even want to be famous?  What even is the point?  I stumbled across a book title, while listening to a podcast this summer.  I have not read the book, however I do want to.  The title was, Famous at Home.  It resonated.  I do want that.  I want to be well known at home.  I want to be adored and loved and accepted at home and I want that for my people.  I want our home to be their stage.  I want them to feel important, loved, adored, known, and desired and seen in our home.  

So for me as I enter this next phase of life I want to focus on the daily.  I want to major on the small things.  I want to cook the meals.  I want to eat the meals with them around the table.  I want to pile on the couch and all watch Survivor.  I want to hear about their days, their thoughts, their annoyances, their dreams, and their plans.  I want to know what they love and what the want and what bothers them.  I want to be a hugger......I'm not.....but I am BECOMING one.

So these are the things I want to remember as my roles change.  I want to present when they need me.  I want to listen.  I want to be dependable.  I want to love, even when they are not very loveable.  Smallness matters.  The unseen is seen.  The daily counts.