They are going on a college visit.
They are spending the whole weekend. They are even visiting a church on Sunday that Andrew said he is going to if he goes to American. Its called Capital Hill Baptist Church. I don't want Andrew to move to DC. Yet I've heard this church is phenomenal. He wants to go. How can I not want that. I've had friends tell me their discipleship program amazing. His life will be changed......I guess the truth is I want him right in the center of Gods will. Wherever that is. My boy loves history, law, the city. I want him to follow God's plan. Really I do. Sigh. I'm just going to miss him!
Then a week from Wednesday is his last first day of school (while he still lives at home).
Then GO.....180 days.....DONE.
So what are we gonna do for those 180 days that are bound to FLY.....?
I am going to take LOTS of pictures.....we had our family pictures done at the beach this summer. They are the last, professional, while all my babies are under my roof pictures. I'm so glad we had them done.
I'm going to celebrate everything and go to all his swim meets and cheer loud.
I'm going to talk to him. I'm going to tell him everything I can think to tell him; the kind of man I hope he will be, the importance of good friendships, why I love him, why I love his Daddy, how proud I am of him.
I'm gonna let him go. I'm gonna let him practice being grown while he is still home.
I'm going to buy him stuff; stuff for his dorm room, a bike, luggage, a sweatshirt for whatever college he decides to go to, gift cards to restaurants, a cozy blanket, a frame for a picture of his Mama....I mean family....
I'm also going to save quarters. I'm sending him off with lots of quarters.
I'm going to plan a big party to celebrate. A party with food and friends and family.
I'm going to cook for him a lot. Steaks and potatoes and cookies.
I know this. I tried from the beginning to parent with the end in mind. The end is coming quick! I did my best, and it was not good enough. I messed up so much. However, that boy KNOWS he is loved. He KNOWS our love for him is not dependent on his behavior or performance. He KNOWS his Mama is a sinner. He KNOWS Christ is our only salvation. So.......
I'm going to kiss him goodbye each morning, listen to his day each evening, and I may start tucking him in again.....I only have 180 more days.....or so.....
Deep breath.......
Kim - I got this idea from another mom and did it for Mark. Each week of his senior year, write him a note, either comments on what happened that week or lessons learned or advice or wisdom. You could do it in a notebook or you could make a scrapbook. I did the digital scrapbook and added fun artwork and pictures.
ReplyDeleteIt does go by so very fast... Your blog says it all... do it, every one of the things you said. Enjoy him and the milestones this year. Remain available to him, which I know you will. I have cried for joy and for the sadness of how fast Bruce grew up.
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